Hey Jakey,

I guess early morning is when mamas around the world blog. I'm sitting up with you right now, typing with one hand, and I've surfed a couple of mama blogs. I certainly never thought I'd be one of *those* women.

I've read over my past entries and it really looks like I've lost my "edge." I'm not *that gal* anymore who goes and gets her nose pierced, or goes to see a Bad Religion/Green Day double bill at the Warfield, or passes out under the coats on the bed at my going-away party. I'm not even the quirky writer anymore who won third place entertainment writing in all of Nevada a few months ago. I'm "mommy" who fights the crowds at Walmart, nurses at least a dozen times a day, does laundry now on a daily basis, and --fercrissakes-- yesterday I bought a Swiffer Duster. I was thinking when I bought it: wow, this will make dusting so much easier. WTF? Just who is this stranger that I've become?

I'm embarassed for myself, then I look down at your face (at this moment, your upside-down Fetal Pig face is sleeping in the palm of my hand, with your feet tucked in my armpit) and I surrender to it. Yeah, I'm one of those women now. A mama who loves her little boy and doesn't really think about much else. There will be time enough later to re-acquaint myself with that other me, the one who used to do 'shrooms on the beach with the girlies and sing karaoke in lesbian bars.

BTW, G'ville is under severe snow warning right now. How are we supposed to go for a walk in the park today if it's snowing?