Hey Jakey,

Here I am at work again. I hate sitting here, but not quite ready to go home just yet. I took one of those online IQ tests this weekend. I bet that website tells *everyone* that they're borderline genius. Sigh, and what do I have to show for it. I should've won a Pulitzer by now. Or an Oscar. Or the lotto. Anything! Uh-oh, I feel a pity party coming on.

I finally went back to a Weight Watchers meeting this week. Gack. When the lady weighed me, I told her that I didn't care to know how much I had gained since my last meeting about 3 months ago. But when I was putting the paperwork back in my purse, I accidentally caught a glimpse of the numbers. Not as bad as I thought it would be, but a gain nonetheless. When I was nursing you full-time, I could eat an entire cow everyday and still lose weight. Then you weren't nursing so much, but I was still eating an entire cow everyday. Ha. The pounds just kinda started creepin'.

Not a whole lot to say tonight. I'm just wasting time. Kinda bummed that you'll be asleep by the time I get home.

Oh, here's what I meant to say to you today: since I'm not keeping a baby book or anything like that, even though we have a dozen or so really cute ones, I should record your milestones here. I've been very lackadaisical about that shit, but here's another one: You can now pull yourself up to a standing position. I've seen you do it three times now. Daddy had to lower your crib so that you don't launch yourself over the side. The first time you did it, I didn't see it, but your daddy did. That was either Monday or Tuesday of this week. Congrats. Just another thing for me to worry about.

Daddy and I got into a "discussion" last night after John Kerry's speech to the delegates at the DNC. Daddy seems to think that I LIKE Kerry. I don't, not really. In fact, I feel resentment towards my party that Kerry's the best we can come up with. Truth be told, I would've rather had Howard Dean or Wesley Clark. But I'll probably vote for the fucker just so I can cancel out someone's Bush vote. When my dad was here, I kept telling him that the only reason I was going to vote for Kerry was to cancel out his vote. Not amused... I could vote for Nader, but that would be like pissing in the wind. I don't think Kerry has a chance anyway. His speech was appalling. I was hoping for something that would revolutionize his campaign. Turn everything around. But... nothing new. I still feel extremely lukewarm towards him. His wife is kinda cool, though. "Shove it!"

Here's to a new world order, Jakey. Good night, and love you lots.