Hey Jakey,

Asleep again. You've felt kind of punk ever since you woke up after we got back from the doctor. I think the shots may have bothered you a bit.

So, I've reached a peace agreement with my breasts. In the past month, my supply plummeted, what little there was of it in the first place. Mostly because I went back to work, and pumping doesn't work for me. I pump at least twice a day each day I'm at work, and come home with -maybe- an ounce. At first, this caused clogged ducts/mastitis. Then, oh heartbreak, during my last clogged duct spell, you started to refuse my breast when I offered. You reluctantly took the left side, which you always favored in the first place, but screamed when I showed you the right side. That made me cry for days. I went to see Dr. Becky, and she put me on Reglan, which made me sad and tired, but upped my supply a little bit. She also got me on milk thistle extract. I've also started taking lecithin to help prevent the clogged ducts, and I haven't had any since. I ordered domperidone from some Southeast Asian company on the internet, and have stopped taking the Reglan. The domperidone seems to work better, and with none of the nasty side effects.

Anyway, the upshot is... you're a formula baby that nurses. You take to both breasts now without fussing and nurse contentedly several times a day. I would say about 75% of your nutrition comes from formula, and I provide the rest. I think that's the best the both of us are going to do, and I'm beginning to be okay with that. I didn't think I would be, but I am.

My parents. Wow. That was an experience. I was so glad that Mom was here all last month. I thought a month would be way too long, but I was so sorry to see her go. Dad came out the last week she was here, and they flew home together. We haven't all gotten along so well since -- well -- forever, I guess. It's all because of you, dear heart. The focus is off of me, and its all shifted to YOU. No one talks about how fucked up I am, or my daddy is, or whatever, because we're all talking about YOU. I love it!

They bought a 27-foot Winnebago while they were here. Its parked out in front of the house now, and they plan to come back often to visit, and plan on sleeping in the Winnie instead of on an air mattress in the front room. But, in the meantime, you and I and daddy are free to use it any time we want to. It's been there for a week or so now, and I always thought that if we had a cruiser, we'd use it every day. Not so. Gas is the most expensive its ever been, and our work schedules suck ASS, so its hard to find the time. More about work schedules later.

I'll try to post more often, Jakey. It feels good to write. Good night, and I love you.